Feel like the affection level is slowly dying off on your end towards me:(
I try so hard to continuously give the same amount of affection that I gave when we first got together, if not more now… But I feel like we are back to being ( I love you so much and I want the world to know it, and your still scared to show anyone, even me, that you have any affection towards me! ) but when we first started dating, it was like you we’re so happy to even hear my voice, or to text me or to see me as u pulled in the driveway, I could feel your excitement from forever away, but now it’s just like (eh, there is the bitch who makes me miserable)
God I hope you still love me the way you say you do, I hope I still make you as happy as I know I once did….
It’s still so hard to even get a real kiss every time you depart from me:(
Maybe I am embarrassing and not worth wasting energy on, maybe I am too ugly to get that excitement from you anymore. You used to text me just to tell me that I crossed your mind…. I try to still do those lil things as much as possible! But maybe I’m not doing it enough to even get any at all from you! I remember you use to hold my hand and smile so big at me looking at you… That you couldn’t help but kiss me if you made me smile.
Kinda sad at the moment. I guess sleep is out of the question yet again for me… Just sad tears. I hate me so much. I’m not worthy of shit! 😔